I’m now officially out of braces family :DDD
Conclusion…
Bye braces and Hello retainer!!! :)
P.S. Amanda Lo was the 1st friend who saw me without braces :)
Sometimes adding a smile just makes everything totally the opposite way. Making life simple. We have enough of stress, sorrow, and sadness. It can be simple as we want it to be. It can be totally positive. It can be full of rainbows instead of gloomy clouds.
I am uncertain of my future. Kind of missing in the mid way. Now just left two and pick one and that will be my destiny. For sure, I will be apart from where i used to know. And of course, adapting myself in a new world. Feeling alone but i am excited to discover what will be coming in my way. I know I have a lot to learn, way more than what I expected. Life is tough, I have to be tougher.
Good luck, all my dearest friends. I love everyone of you. Take care and may your guardians always by your side :)
Am I having this feeling too soon??
There are much more meaning than just having friends around. We need friends to be there when there are something we can’t tell or share with our parents. We gone through thick and thin together. We celebrate. We cheer. We cry. We shout. We hold each other together. We fight and be friends again.
Sadly, there are some who just in the middle of the sorrow. They loved and now they build a huge wall in between. I watch and set my hands doing nothing. Sad. Why? Why? WHY? I can be very sure that you will be laughing for this in the future. That is impossible you still hating each other when you are holding your child in your arms. You will smile and drop a tear for ending you teenage life like that, feeling ridiculous.
Don’t you miss that? Well, I do.
Got back some exam papers, not satisfied. Again, I feel great sorry to teachers and blaming myself for doing so badly. The most interesting so far is english essay, personally i like Edmund’s motivative SUCCESS and Audrey’s real story of “the class will not be the same without him”.
I wish friendship is the only ship that will never wreck :)
Just finished trial exam today. I am FREE!!! *super duper excited* Again, i learnt quite a lot in the past 3 weeks. Apart from the threatening questions, i know myself better. I can't say that the odds are against me because it is my own fault and mistakes. I promise I will change, change for better and hopefully for the best. Attended a meaningful and inspiring talk by Dr. Morni. "Saya mahu!!!" :) Regretted going back earlier and didn't have the tasteful lunch :(
There is only around one month time for SPM. That means secondary school life will be ended very soon. Graduation Day is on 15th Nov. and we have to plan what performances we want and what to buy for the teachers. T-shirt is in the process. For us, we have a simple design but 5E has more complex design. We will see which one is better :P
Signing off.
All things seem smooth to me. Yea, that is a lie. :) Nothing left to say and I just wanna do what ever I want to. That’s how I live for me, myself, alone. Yea, I am such a selfish jerk. I just don’t want to do the same thing again and again. I’m sick of this. I tried and trying, maybe. DAAAAA~ I’m done of this. off off OFF!!!!! A teenage life with movies, music, friends, family and a little bit of flirting is enough, for me.
Some of other friends started to plan for their holiday plans after SPM. I think I should join them, would be fun :) But, I feel tired at the moment. Motivation needed. KIA KAHA~ :)
I am currently free from anything. Just feel like nothing to do. Yea, i have a account test on Monday but when it is right after the excel, i just don’t have any motivation to read. :O
Back with my usual lifestyle, movie.
That’s love. Protecting in a way that willing to do anything. Fresh to the market though.
God. Human. Demon. I wish i could be the son of Zeus :) It is pretty cool to have some power that beyond human abilities. yea, it is a little bit old because i missed it out for months :P
In real life, there is the same. I am Human. However there are just some bullshits who always tell lies. Come on, be a man and don’t ever pretending that you didn’t do the same thing i did. Please have guts and admit it. I am sick of you!!! That’s why i don’t like to talk to you guys, STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE!!! You guys really are just meant to be one gang, one gang of shits. Yea, you got me.
Phoo… Music… Currently i am listening to Leehom’s lastest album, simply nice :)
Love the song《你不知道的事》:)
It is just something that we always ignored and don’t even care about it. Are we cruel? No. It is just that we don’t really know. Be a true listener and goes with the feeling and be confidence to make a choice. BE STRONG. I am mute as i saw that. I have nothing to say, nothing to be a subject. I was thinking to do that but you took the first step before me. The road not taken and i will do what the poet did. I may slap myself for doing this, but i have to be strong. I have to chasing for my dreams, i want to break the boundaries. TRUST ME. It will be gone.
Just started to watch《公主嫁到》It really makes me laugh :D
Theory of a Deadman - Not Meant To Be
It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It is way too hard for me to explain all over again. If you really can’t get what i meant, that’s the way we should stick with, just like the song. Make it simple please. Make it through until the end, i think it will be better when we are not seeing each other. It is just few months left.
Yes, this is just a break. I was and will be very busy with my mountain-like homework and projects. I think i am the reason that makes me busy like hell. I am lazy, lazy to move, in any issue. I never been lazy like this before, just like do nothing the whole day will make me…… happy :P
Did go out with my primary school’s friends. They had changed a lot. Had fun staying with them. I can be the childish me :D
Staying at home will be my movie time. Feed myself with movie is just another way to comfort myself. watched some old movies, simply great :)
This gives me a new definition of love. Love is simple and fun.
This shows me how brave a tiny boy is, don’t judge a book by its cover.
A CNY movie. True friendship lasts long no matter what happen.
Long time ago, we had a malay drama presentation – KERUSI. This is the very first group work we have in Form 5 :D love the moment we spent together and surely i won’t forget this sweet memory~
play,eat,sleep practice with no parents at home. Imagine 17 teen boys and girls in a house, we can do anything we wanted :P
P.S. Jeremy, i didn’t mean to make you feel jealous. It is good if you were here but…… too bad… *wink* :P
Finish preparing all the things for drama. Will go to Kwan’s house tmr right after tuition. Still feeling lazy, but i have to finish all the pending stuffs in this very short holiday. Watched Little Big Soldier in PPS, it is a nice movie. Funny yet meaningful. Worth to watch. And i have to say Wang Leehom did change a lot in this movie. For Jackie Chan, he did not fight much in this movie but another way round :)
Well, i was very happy last night. Sweet in the heart. All i want is this, the way how it flows, the words that melt my heart. I will keep my promise if you do your part :) It takes a very long time for me to feel like that way. Thx for making a good night for me :) I’ve found a reason for me to change who i used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you.
Yes~ i am really really into holidays. Not touching any books. Stick my face on the computer screen more than 12 hours a day :D Feeling good for having laziness to control my whole body. Love sleeping. Wakes up after 12pm everyday. It is sad to wake up VERY EARLY tmr morning… 7AM !!!!! Will do the drama practice and all the preparations. Hope we manage to finish it in one day, so i can relax for one more day.
Watched Percy Jackson and Olympians - The Lighting Thief in PPS *FINALLY*. I love the concept of the movie as it mix modern time with the old story and the power of water is AWESOME O.O PPS is very slow and greedy for not sharing all the new movies, they only open to the VIPs who need to pay them. There are many, really, movies hit the big screen last few months, but now i only watched one. Waiting list: Valentine’s Day, Alice in Wonderland, Remember me, Dear John, and many others chinese movies. Please tell if you have any of these movies. I AM HUNGRY!!! FEED ME!!!! Gossip Girl is back but now i want 90210~
Looking forward for the prefect camp. Hope it will be a really memorable camp. I think it will be fun to have all the friends as the AJKs of the camp. It’s time for us to treat the juniors :D KahMan said he will visit us one night and go out for yum cha. It will be fun :D
There were some many times i lied. Lied for the same stupid things. I don’t like it but damn it, i have to. My mind is set to respond so. I can’t help. Many asked but i answered the same and stabbing myself again and again. I scared. I am trying to run away. I have no idea how awkward i am. I hope the mask that i am wearing doesn’t and never will show the true me. Please. Yea, i hate the past. It always tells me how stupid i was. Now, I’m stuck!!!!
Went to Kwan HL’s house on the 2nd day of CNY, for mostly the whole day. Going to her house is like a must to me, to feel the friendly-ness of her parents, the noise we made when we gamble, the “boom” Kevin brought :D
Tata~ This is another motive i went to KHL’s house, get to see the stupiddumbhornyaussieguy Jeremy.
Me & Jeremy planned to meet as there were many people in KHL’s house *actually this gamble-spirited jeremy wants to feel the atmosphere of gambling* Setting up the webcam is wasting time, trying many times and finally made it. He do change a bit as you can see, he is showing off his so called long hair. I can know that he still sleeps earlier, can you see his smiles fade through times?? Because that time was almost 9pm there O.O I bet in the last pic he sees the clock on the wall. ~.~
In the air-conditioned room, all gamblers gamble like mad. You can choose from “dok dok” to “cho dai di”, from “la mi” to “ka long” :D
Kwan’s 50 bucks lost in 5 mins :O
And so, they got their assets to play the next game :D
I learn “la mi” this year. Love it :D
Had a small break before we start again. The girls did the clean up D:
Had “ka long” for awhile and no one liked it :(
Had beer to end the fun night :D
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