The most annoying thing happens all the time when the semester starts. I hate this part the most. It is a bad opening to me due to those fucking selfish fools. It is crystal clear that the society nowadays behaves that way. There are much evil people out there.
Today I read back some old chats... I was such an armature in certain stuff, so selfish, so brainless and so much of emotion-controlled. It's time to end it and I really wish I hadn't done so much harm. I am truly sorry. This does hurts because I have lost one good good friend.
There are so much things I want to do and so less time.
I am so tiny and the huge world is just mysterious.
Work hard yo!!
Am recently into blogs. Craving for some real stories to read on as I am having a sad life. I should be grateful but just sometimes I hate it so much. Don't want face certain facts and I am sick of my daily lives. Ahhhhhhhh I should have do what I should do instead of using the phone to type this shit again. I am desperate. Desperate for holidays and just pls give me a break okay! Chiao!!
Taking risk. Taking chance. Change everything as if I have a different life. Sometimes seeing others have been too well in life makes me feel so tiny. But seeing what I have I am so proud yet humbled. I know life isn't about comparing with others and yes we cannot compare everything. Sometimes things are that confusing. I like to have freedom yet I need love. I like to be mature but childish is just so fun. I like to arrange things and all go with plans but what's wrong with the spontaneous act? I protect myself yet I got red eye from others. I need space but yet I felt dumped when I need someone. Life's changing in a way that I like to shout out loud all my happiness yet I moan for all the failures ALONE. Note the differences? Hey life, keep changing and stop when you are perfect for me, okay? :(
Saw this quote. Forever alone. 我终于知道我单身的原因了：我喜欢的不喜欢我、喜欢我的我不知道
Yeap, all of my friends have gone for studies and of course me myself have got into university life. One word, tough. I gonna got on the pace with the lectures and tutorials. I have to stress myself to face the coming tests, reports and assignments. There is no time for me to fool around because that will lead me to blank-ness. I gonna always remember the 2 days I was deep under the cliff.
Suddenly have to mood to write something especially at the moment I give up something, well it is not everything, luckily.
FYI, I will be going to UTAR for my further studies. Not sure it is a good choice. I will be taking Foundation in Science ++ Electrical and Electronic Engineering. Will be flying on 15th May, the day I have been waiting for, maybe not. There you go, uncertainties. I don’t like the feel of being uncertain, seriously. What to do? I can’t predict what happens next. I have no power. I am no superman, sadly.
As you all may know, moving out from the family you have been with for like almost 20 years is a damn hard job. Yes, I call it a job, a job that should be paid very highly. I hate this job so much but what to do? It sucks. Settling down and move into a new environment would easier when you have friends. Yes, I have friends. I should be happy right? Some had cheer me for having such big gang of friends. Some had warn me that it will be troublesome. You see, uncertainties.
Let go so that I won’t be hated or unfavourable because I am the newbie right? Time should be used to do our own things :) like Tangled?
Chinese New Year mood is still in my body. I still dream of gambling :D
This year was a little bit different, visiting more friends’ house, and of course more fun :)
The Eve ~ Tired
This day was the busiest day, more works :( Stayed home and helping parents doing all the households. Dexter called to Suzanne’s place for lami but couldn’t make it :C Had the house and everything totally clean. Went Grandma’s house for the great dinner. Cousins were there and we made “Tang Yuan” with red bean fillings :P Everyone loved it :)
1st Day ~ Boring! as usual =.=
Went to dad’s office as we did every year. Meeting his boss and comrades. Bro met his Prudential’s friends. *yeah, my bro is one of the agents of Prudential now* Watched my one and only lion dance this year, it was boring though, nothing challenging =.= Went to Yu Yuan because my dad is MCA committee member. Saw many familiar faces and also Jeremy’s dad. Went to Grandma’s house for lunch AND dinner. Gambled with cousins and played mafia :) Dexter didn’t open house this year which he did it on the 1st day last year.
2nd Day ~ Catching up
Went to my uncle’s place, meeting with more cousins who we could rarely meet. Talking with relatives and good to hear what they doing :) Went to KwanHL’s place and a lot of people were already there: Soong, PangSF, Felix, PeiC, Joyce, Kelly, Drey, TanPL, ToKY, WongKM, KevinT, KelvinW, and also Bii. Great to meet them but still i couldn’t meet LuMG and Edmund :( Skyped with Jeremy and let him to gamble through the webcam =.= Gambled for a while and won some :D Later i bid goodbye with KwanHL *paiseh not having the dinner there* as i got go back to my Grandma’s house for a HUGE dinner.
There were relatives, all of them who in SDK. Helped out for the dinner. Seriously, there were too MANY faces and there were 6 tables!! Each with 6 delicious homemade dishes. Later, for the 1st time, me and my cousins and 2 neighbours moved to one of my aunt’s house for playing lami :D because the adults wanted to play lami also but there was only one lami table in my Grandma’s house. We played lami in my aunt’s house until 3 something, profited also :D
3rd Day ~ TAGADA & APPOLO!!! :D
This day is like fully booked day. I planned to go to Mr Tan’s house *my add maths tuition teacher* in the morning but i couldn’t make it as i played lami too much and sleeping “late”. Surprisingly, Celes didn’t go also as she was the one who suggested.
Went to Zi Heng’s house. ChungVS, Leng, Arjunan, Ivan, Lai, Patrick, DanielT, MandaP, Drey, Joseanne, TsaiSM, MichelleF, LiewKS, TaiSY, HengBM, LimCF, WarrenC were there. Played a few rounds of ChoDaiDi. Then they tried to skype with Jeremy and start gambling. I wasn’t in the mood yet so i played PS instead with Patrick. *Jeremy, don’t blame me ya :S* Had lunch then i start gambling DokDok. Got bored so i stopped for a while. Ah Sui’s gang came and we started gambling DokDok at the other table. Ah Kok was the Chiong and he was the lucky star that day. He got 9 for several times IN A ROLL!!! and sometimes even with 9 dokdok!!! All of us claimed he must have wearing red underwear XD So i ended up nothing profited nothing lost in Zi Heng’s house. Bid goodbye with Zi Heng and headed to DanielT’s House before going to Daxter’s house. Good to visit Daniel’s house as that was my first time and catching up with him.
Reached Daxter’s house and played lami with Daniel, Michelle and Joey :D Had dinner and hangout for a while. They(Ricky,Joey,Fiona,WongKD,Kok,ChinYK,Clarence,Johnnie,Michelle,ChungPY) planned to go to funfair. *Ah Sui didn’t go that night because she went to kampung to expand my business :D* It was the best night to go as it didn’t rain for a WHOLE day!!! So me and Daniel asked ChungVL to go as he was driving :D
Then the whole gang moved to funfair, there were A LOTS OF cars, causing traffic jam in Indah, they were all going to funfair also. ChungVL parked the car near Jesselton there. Met up with Mandy and Philip at the entrance. Bought the entrance tickets and got in. Bought some coins and decided to play the TAGADA, so called the washing machine. There were hell lots of people queuing up rushing up to get in. We waited like those people playing for 3 or 4 rounds and got fed up!! Planned to squeeze ourselves into the crowd. For couples, the boy protect the girl. For singles, like me, i was forced and pushed by ChungVL and successfully cut through the crowd. But, when i looked back, only Fiona and WongKD managed to get through. The others like STILL not even moved a bit =.= So we had to wait again for 2 rounds then the whole gang managed to get through. When we all got into the TAGADA, only DanielT was left out in the crowd =.= We all had fun shouting and shouting!!! <:D We got to hold tight to the steel bar, especially by the time when the machine shaking. We waited a while for DanielT’s turn to play, alone :(
Later, we walked around. Although it didn’t rain for a day but the ground was still muddy and everyone were walking very carefully as all were wearing new shoes >:d Philip was the only one wearing the most suitable shoes, CROCS =.= Then we decided to play APPOLO. Going through the same super crowded squeezing condition and finally got into the APPOLO. Only half of the gang managed to play in the 1st round. The rest got to play in the 2nd round. Then we planned to go to 7 Heaven and Jesselton to have a drink but both places were full house. Bumped into TracyK and Shalina who both worked part time in 7 Heaven. Met ChangNK also who already turned into a young lady. Then we went to the 99 Convenience Store to but drinks instead. At the end, all spilt and got home.
No body gambled in my Grandma’s house that night so i got home straight away without any lami :( Planned the activities next day and slept around 2.
4th Day ~ Different
Yeap, the 4th day of CNY this year was different from all the years before. Usually, i would go to Zi Heng’s house but this year he got to go back KK and the IS reopened on the next day. Thus, he made his open house on the 3rd day this year. Dexter called me to join him, LimSR and Suzanne for yum cha. So i called TanPL along for lunch. We all met up at THE BOSS. Chatting and catching up for quite a lot. Miss the way how we gossip as i met Dexter for the 1st time after SPM :)
Later, ChungVL came and it was time for me to go as both of us got to go ChungPY’s place. I bid goodbye with Dexter and the gang. Reached CPY’s place and all of them (funfair gang + ah sui) were already there. Chatting for a little. CPY’s mum was very friendly and always mixed up my name and ChungVL’s =.= i played lami with 3 girls (michelle,joey,ahsui) and the others played DokDok. In between, CPY’s mum and Clarence joined in and there went all the money i profited =.= Played till 4 and we all headed to Mandy’s place. There were dramas on the way ~.~
Joyce, MandaS, MandaP, Kylie, Cath, PangSF and Philip were already there. I straight away played DokDok with Mandy, Philip, MandaP and also PangSF. Then Leng and Soong came. Soong joined the game. At the end, profited just a littttle bit. Big goodbye with all of them around 6 and headed back to home.
Went to my Gandma’s house as there was a buffet also, paid by my aunt who came back from Scotland in January. There were quite expensive dishes but not really enjoyed it =.= Played lami and fireworks with cousins. Then i called it a day.
P.S. I forgot to tell Soong something, quite important to him i guess :S
I also forgot to give the card to KwanHL which was from Jeremy :|
