I’m now officially out of braces family :DDD
Conclusion…
Bye braces and Hello retainer!!! :)
P.S. Amanda Lo was the 1st friend who saw me without braces :)
Sometimes adding a smile just makes everything totally the opposite way. Making life simple. We have enough of stress, sorrow, and sadness. It can be simple as we want it to be. It can be totally positive. It can be full of rainbows instead of gloomy clouds.
I am uncertain of my future. Kind of missing in the mid way. Now just left two and pick one and that will be my destiny. For sure, I will be apart from where i used to know. And of course, adapting myself in a new world. Feeling alone but i am excited to discover what will be coming in my way. I know I have a lot to learn, way more than what I expected. Life is tough, I have to be tougher.
Good luck, all my dearest friends. I love everyone of you. Take care and may your guardians always by your side :)
Am I having this feeling too soon??
There are much more meaning than just having friends around. We need friends to be there when there are something we can’t tell or share with our parents. We gone through thick and thin together. We celebrate. We cheer. We cry. We shout. We hold each other together. We fight and be friends again.
Sadly, there are some who just in the middle of the sorrow. They loved and now they build a huge wall in between. I watch and set my hands doing nothing. Sad. Why? Why? WHY? I can be very sure that you will be laughing for this in the future. That is impossible you still hating each other when you are holding your child in your arms. You will smile and drop a tear for ending you teenage life like that, feeling ridiculous.
Don’t you miss that? Well, I do.
Got back some exam papers, not satisfied. Again, I feel great sorry to teachers and blaming myself for doing so badly. The most interesting so far is english essay, personally i like Edmund’s motivative SUCCESS and Audrey’s real story of “the class will not be the same without him”.
I wish friendship is the only ship that will never wreck :)
Just finished trial exam today. I am FREE!!! *super duper excited* Again, i learnt quite a lot in the past 3 weeks. Apart from the threatening questions, i know myself better. I can't say that the odds are against me because it is my own fault and mistakes. I promise I will change, change for better and hopefully for the best. Attended a meaningful and inspiring talk by Dr. Morni. "Saya mahu!!!" :) Regretted going back earlier and didn't have the tasteful lunch :(
There is only around one month time for SPM. That means secondary school life will be ended very soon. Graduation Day is on 15th Nov. and we have to plan what performances we want and what to buy for the teachers. T-shirt is in the process. For us, we have a simple design but 5E has more complex design. We will see which one is better :P
Signing off.
All things seem smooth to me. Yea, that is a lie. :) Nothing left to say and I just wanna do what ever I want to. That’s how I live for me, myself, alone. Yea, I am such a selfish jerk. I just don’t want to do the same thing again and again. I’m sick of this. I tried and trying, maybe. DAAAAA~ I’m done of this. off off OFF!!!!! A teenage life with movies, music, friends, family and a little bit of flirting is enough, for me.
Some of other friends started to plan for their holiday plans after SPM. I think I should join them, would be fun :) But, I feel tired at the moment. Motivation needed. KIA KAHA~ :)
I am currently free from anything. Just feel like nothing to do. Yea, i have a account test on Monday but when it is right after the excel, i just don’t have any motivation to read. :O
Back with my usual lifestyle, movie.
That’s love. Protecting in a way that willing to do anything. Fresh to the market though.
God. Human. Demon. I wish i could be the son of Zeus :) It is pretty cool to have some power that beyond human abilities. yea, it is a little bit old because i missed it out for months :P
In real life, there is the same. I am Human. However there are just some bullshits who always tell lies. Come on, be a man and don’t ever pretending that you didn’t do the same thing i did. Please have guts and admit it. I am sick of you!!! That’s why i don’t like to talk to you guys, STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE!!! You guys really are just meant to be one gang, one gang of shits. Yea, you got me.
Phoo… Music… Currently i am listening to Leehom’s lastest album, simply nice :)
Love the song《你不知道的事》:)
It is just something that we always ignored and don’t even care about it. Are we cruel? No. It is just that we don’t really know. Be a true listener and goes with the feeling and be confidence to make a choice. BE STRONG. I am mute as i saw that. I have nothing to say, nothing to be a subject. I was thinking to do that but you took the first step before me. The road not taken and i will do what the poet did. I may slap myself for doing this, but i have to be strong. I have to chasing for my dreams, i want to break the boundaries. TRUST ME. It will be gone.
Just started to watch《公主嫁到》It really makes me laugh :D
Theory of a Deadman - Not Meant To Be
It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It is way too hard for me to explain all over again. If you really can’t get what i meant, that’s the way we should stick with, just like the song. Make it simple please. Make it through until the end, i think it will be better when we are not seeing each other. It is just few months left.
Yes, this is just a break. I was and will be very busy with my mountain-like homework and projects. I think i am the reason that makes me busy like hell. I am lazy, lazy to move, in any issue. I never been lazy like this before, just like do nothing the whole day will make me…… happy :P
Did go out with my primary school’s friends. They had changed a lot. Had fun staying with them. I can be the childish me :D
Staying at home will be my movie time. Feed myself with movie is just another way to comfort myself. watched some old movies, simply great :)
This gives me a new definition of love. Love is simple and fun.
This shows me how brave a tiny boy is, don’t judge a book by its cover.
A CNY movie. True friendship lasts long no matter what happen.
Long time ago, we had a malay drama presentation – KERUSI. This is the very first group work we have in Form 5 :D love the moment we spent together and surely i won’t forget this sweet memory~
play,eat,sleep practice with no parents at home. Imagine 17 teen boys and girls in a house, we can do anything we wanted :P
P.S. Jeremy, i didn’t mean to make you feel jealous. It is good if you were here but…… too bad… *wink* :P
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