Theory of a Deadman - Not Meant To Be

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn away one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It is way too hard for me to explain all over again. If you really can’t get what i meant, that’s the way we should stick with, just like the song. Make it simple please. Make it through until the end, i think it will be better when we are not seeing each other. It is just few months left.

Yes, this is just a break. I was and will be very busy with my mountain-like homework and projects. I think i am the reason that makes me busy like hell. I am lazy, lazy to move, in any issue. I never been lazy like this before, just like do nothing the whole day will make me…… happy :P

Did go out with my primary school’s friends. They had changed a lot. Had fun staying with them. I can be the childish me :D

Staying at home will be my movie time. Feed myself with movie is just another way to comfort myself. watched some old movies, simply great :)

This gives me a new definition of love. Love is simple and fun.

This shows me how brave a tiny boy is, don’t judge a book by its cover.

A CNY movie. True friendship lasts long no matter what happen.

*Don’t ask why am i like beh song in this pic. I smiled but they said it should be serious in the 1st pic so it turned out like this ~.~ luckily the gang at the back acted cool if not i will be the only with a face like that.*

Long time ago, we had a malay drama presentation – KERUSI. This is the very first group work we have in Form 5 :D love the moment we spent together and surely i won’t forget this sweet memory~

Ade smelling her “rejoice” hair while watching Run Devil Run.

Soong’s parents’ Honda City.

Unexpectedly, the commercials made us laugh A LOT~ Cal-YUM & Ribenna :D

FYI, Kwan Hew Lam was the one who lend her house for us to play,eat,sleep practice with no parents at home. Imagine 17 teen boys and girls in a house, we can do anything we wanted :P

Us, dancing NOBODY… Trust me, Pang Yong Tong is very pro at this :O

Love this pic. Btw, Ade and Felix are like those celebrities get caught when they are holding hands.

This is the worst thing i ate so far D:

Ah Lau(out of the camera), Kevin, Soong and Felix dancing SORRY, SORRY :D

3 beautiful servants of mine :P

Me explaining how to make the dolphin-sound-mix-with-making-love-sound between Masayu(Tan Pui Lei) and Putra(Ricky). This is how a dull drama changed and becomes an interesting one :D

With his dirty mind, he knows everything i mean and do it 100% wonderful.

The Sissy Lemon(Elton) and Gay Couple(Felix & Soong)

If i was Ribenna(Lau Chong Yen), i will kick his butt and run away XD

On the big day, we all were well prepared and ready to bring on the show. So far, i didn’t get any negative feedback and who cares if it was all about Friendship.

I personally love the whole process of this, with whole bunch of friends doing such group work. Plus, no one was missing in every single practice :D

P.S. Jeremy, i didn’t mean to make you feel jealous. It is good if you were here but…… too bad… *wink* :P

I give you my word
I give you my heart
Every word I say is true
This i promise you

I promise you :)

Finish preparing all the things for drama. Will go to Kwan’s house tmr right after tuition. Still feeling lazy, but i have to finish all the pending stuffs in this very short holiday. Watched Little Big Soldier in PPS, it is a nice movie. Funny yet meaningful. Worth to watch. And i have to say Wang Leehom did change a lot in this movie. For Jackie Chan, he did not fight much in this movie but another way round :)

Well, i was very happy last night. Sweet in the heart. All i want is this, the way how it flows, the words that melt my heart. I will keep my promise if you do your part :) It takes a very long time for me to feel like that way. Thx for making a good night for me :) I’ve found a reason for me to change who i used to be. A reason to start over new and the reason is you.

Yes~ i am really really into holidays. Not touching any books. Stick my face on the computer screen more than 12 hours a day :D Feeling good for having laziness to control my whole body. Love sleeping. Wakes up after 12pm everyday. It is sad to wake up VERY EARLY tmr morning… 7AM !!!!! Will do the drama practice and all the preparations. Hope we manage to finish it in one day, so i can relax for one more day.

Watched Percy Jackson and Olympians - The Lighting Thief in PPS *FINALLY*. I love the concept of the movie as it mix modern time with the old story and the power of water is AWESOME O.O PPS is very slow and greedy for not sharing all the new movies, they only open to the VIPs who need to pay them. There are many, really, movies hit the big screen last few months, but now i only watched one. Waiting list: Valentine’s Day, Alice in Wonderland, Remember me, Dear John, and many others chinese movies. Please tell if you have any of these movies. I AM HUNGRY!!! FEED ME!!!! Gossip Girl is back but now i want 90210~

Looking forward for the prefect camp. Hope it will be a really memorable camp. I think it will be fun to have all the friends as the AJKs of the camp. It’s time for us to treat the juniors :D KahMan said he will visit us one night and go out for yum cha. It will be fun :D

There were some many times i lied. Lied for the same stupid things. I don’t like it but damn it, i have to. My mind is set to respond so. I can’t help. Many asked but i answered the same and stabbing myself again and again. I scared. I am trying to run away. I have no idea how awkward i am. I hope the mask that i am wearing doesn’t and never will show the true me. Please. Yea, i hate the past. It always tells me how stupid i was. Now, I’m stuck!!!!

Went to Kwan HL’s house on the 2nd day of CNY, for mostly the whole day. Going to her house is like a must to me, to feel the friendly-ness of her parents, the noise we made when we gamble, the “boom” Kevin brought :D

Tata~ This is another motive i went to KHL’s house, get to see the stupiddumbhornyaussieguy Jeremy.

Me & Jeremy planned to meet as there were many people in KHL’s house *actually this gamble-spirited jeremy wants to feel the atmosphere of gambling* Setting up the webcam is wasting time, trying many times and finally made it. He do change a bit as you can see, he is showing off his so called long hair. I can know that he still sleeps earlier, can you see his smiles fade through times?? Because that time was almost 9pm there O.O I bet in the last pic he sees the clock on the wall. ~.~

In the air-conditioned room, all gamblers gamble like mad. You can choose from “dok dok” to “cho dai di”, from “la mi” to “ka long” :D

Kwan’s 50 bucks lost in 5 mins :O

And so, they got their assets to play the next game :D

I learn “la mi” this year. Love it :D

Had a small break before we start again. The girls did the clean up D:

Had “ka long” for awhile and no one liked it :(

Had beer to end the fun night :D

In the very 1st day of CNY, as what i usually did for the past 10 years, went to my dad’s office D: The lion dance wasn’t that good, it fell down TWICE~ O.O

We tended to take a jumping shoot. But i get my bro doing bakchilization instead :D

At night, went to Dex’s house. Satisfied my stomach and played with his cousin.

That was only a small group of people came. We had fun playing “cho dai di” :D

We got this beside all the trophies dex and his sis get. Dex was 7 years old~~

Love the tv set and the blue lights :)

Gamble Play “dok dok” for awhile with mas airline cards.

Last but not least, i did enjoy the night :D Thx for inviting.